The Story: Chapter One

This life is too short for love, passion, enmity, so what you have to do is to fight for yourself. learn to concentrate what you want, FOCUS and you will get what you always wanted to have. I am a simple medical student who tends to sort out what i believe. i have been through hardships, have been torn and shattered but i feel happy and contended now, because that is what made me strong! a strong girl, a visionary woman, and a determined and focused young lady who strives to work for her benefits. People migh call me selfish, but who in this world is selfless? no one.
or maybe...few.
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All these nights i've been focusing on what i wanted to have, always, what does friendship means in my life. a friend is just mere a friend? or its more then just being friends? i have to sort out this stuff before my life could play any further games! no tricks this time, no mind games! i am focused. i am focused. With this note i started getting ready. Today was my first day at medical school. everywhere everything seems to be brighten by just looking at and smile. i was dressed up in bright blue colored dress with that white uniform, a doctors pride! my coat. my passion, my skill, my everything.I entered and saw people walking everywhere, laughing, teasing everybody. i was happy, my first day went very well. i made friends, i was social. i liked many, and many liked me! this was the start of another competitive journey of my life. where i didnt know what further hardships, further regrets and disapproval are coming on their way..
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I was tired, this whole year passed like blink of an eye, i was happy. didn't have to go back in times where people call you a kid and doesn't listen cause they think you're still immature. i was mature, or atleast getting mature. i was in the race of becoming a doctor! my life was revolving around books, studies, friends and family. till that time i didn't know there's always silence before heavy storm! 
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Today was a dark and stormy night, my life was complete or that's what i think it was. i was sitting on the edge of my stairs and was thinking about the worlds purest feeling- love? where is love in my life? i got the answer, there is love in the form of care when i am with my family. There is love in the form of friends when i am sad to cheer me up with silly jokes or giving huge lectures. There was love in the form of anger when i steel extra money from my elders pocket. There was love in the form of food, when i am hungry like a crazy wolf. There is love when my youngsters keep running after me for my attention and love talking to me, playing with me, acting crazy with me and applying tactics to trick elders. then what kind of love was missing? 21 years of my life and i was finding love. the kind of love which has passion in it. the kind of love which i crave for, the kind of love that craves for me. The kind of love which makes me my heart jump it's beats. That kind of love i was looking for...